The last days I have been exposed to the marvellous jungle that is Human Design. I have skirted the system a few times before and always avoided to take a closer look but this time I was drawn in by a siren song and could not help myself but to respond to the call.
According to this system I have a type as Manifesting Generator which means that, according to the Human Design system I must wait for an impulse and then check the response of my sacral system before moving ahead with anything. Which means NOT initiating. My whole being crumbles at the thought of taking my foot of the gaspedal. My mind and ego screams that I will be bored, lost in a limbo of nothingness and tossed to the sidelines.
While I am sorely tempted to side with my ego on this I will take on the challenge and do this experiment. I realise that waiting for the impulse and responding requires me to trust the universe, trust god and develop some “pronoia”. Incidentally trusting the divine and trusting that there is a holy plan is the holy idea of the enneagram seven, go figure. I get that this should be easy right? But for some reason the hole idea seems scary as h*ll to me. What if nothing happens? What if the universe let’s me down? What if no-one asks me the question? And what if it works? Have I spent all this time banging my head against the wall, when all I needed to do was wait?
It’s an interesting experiment, and to me it feels like a death defying stunt…. So here is what I will do, nothing! I will not initiate, I will wait and respond.
So if you are used to wait for me to take initiative and take of doing, well don’t. Ask me a question and allow me to respond and we’ll take it from there!
As I respond to this new information and go of on another adventure of self exploration, I leave you with this little parable that depicts the idea of waiting and responding…
CROSSING THE STREAM
Once upon a time there was a woman who wanted to cross a wide and rapid stream. The stream was too wide, too deep, and too rapid for her to safely wade across. As the woman stood by the stream she could look across and see the exact point where she thought she wanted to go. She paced back and forth across the banks of the stream, frustrated and confused about how to get to the other side.
As she stood alone at the edge of the stream, a gentle voice spoke to her and told her to look at the water. Before her very eyes, a beautiful large round, smooth river rock appeared in the water, just the right distance away for her to step on safely from the bank of the creek.
The woman immediately stepped onto the rock ready to keep on leaping to the other side. As the woman stood on the rock waiting, she began to feel frustrated again. Again, she could see the other side of the creek and where she wanted to go but she just could not get there. Now she was really frustrated and she began to jump up and down on her rock.
Again, a gentle voice reminded her to look down at the water. As she looked down, another beautiful, stable rock appeared just a little ways away from the rock she was standing on. The woman hopped gracefully to the next rock, this time a little bemused at the whole process.
This process repeated itself over and over again. And each time as the woman stepped onto a new rock, she began to trust that another rock would appear. She just had to wait for the right one. Slowly, she made her way across the stream, rock by rock, until she arrived at her destination. By the time she got to the other side, she knew that wherever her life took her, opportunities to go further would always present themselves.
Your life is like the stream. Stand on the edge, see where you want to go and wait for the rocks to show up. When an opportunity to further your crossing appears, respond with your sacral and see whether this is really the rock you want to step onto.
You may find that your path of rocks takes you to a different part of the stream than you originally intended. You may find that once you get out in the middle of the stream that the side you started out on is better than where you are going. You may find that Life will bring you the perfect rocks to lead you to the path of your greatest Heart’s desires.
Follow the rocks and TRUST that they will always appear when you are ready!